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Spare Me

from Caretaker by Malachi Graham

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It feels like the rope really was cut, and instead of leaning into the feeling of falling down into the pit, the equal and opposite reaction is happening and we are taking off. It's the perfect bookend with "We Made a Home" - the first song on the album focuses on what was lost, and the last on what was gained. Neither generate simple feelings - both have the bitter and the sweet in them. But "Spare Me" leaves so much space at the end. It leaves us all lingering there on the edge of possibility. Disaster averted, and all the fear and hope and desperation and prospects of an unknowable future.

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I’m a woman, not a notion
I’m a heartbeat, not your conscience
I’m a whole, not your good half— spare me.

You’ve been living like you wanna die
For so long that I already grieved us

I can’t suspend my disbelief
Thought it was love, but I guess it was grief
Shoulda known from the way they all looked at me
You were never coming back.
You were never coming back.

I can’t suspend my disbelief
Thought it was love, but I guess it was grief
Shoulda known from the way they all looked at me
You were never coming back.

You set me free from my desperate hopes
With the knife that you used to cut the rope
You were going down with me in tow
To the darkness below
To the darkness below

Did you spare me? Spare me.
Did you spare me? Spare me.
I can’t suspend / spare me
My disbelief / spare me
You were going down / spare me
With me in tow / spare me
Spare me, did you spare me?
Spare me, did you spare me?
Spare me.

credits

from Caretaker, track released January 10, 2024
Written & composed by Malachi Graham
Produced by Philip Graham and Malachi Graham
Mixing: John Askew at Bocce
Mastering: Amy Dragon at Telegraph Mastering
Vocals, guitar: Malachi Graham. Synth & Arrangement: Ryan Linder. Drums: Dan Galucki.

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Malachi Graham Portland, Oregon

Portland indie songwriter Malachi Graham twines her incisive lyrics and inventive sounds around the complexity of personal relationships. With a long history in the synth-pop duo Small Million, her newest solo songs explore codependency, unraveling loves, chronic pain, grudges, flings, and the boundaries of the self. ... more

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